mcrtilldeath's Journals on Buzznet

Zoe- Jane [read it, do it xD]

mcrtilldeath — 2008-11-01T05:54:00Z

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

If someone says "Is this okay?" You say...?
all the same [well guess its alrite..!]

How would you describe yourself?
our lady of sorrows.!! [hahaha]

What do you like in a guy?
Sorrow [wtf?]

How do you feel today?
when we first met [eh?]

What is your life's purpose?
numb [oh that sounds gr8]

What is your motto?
dont jump [it does have a point xP]

What do your friends think of you?
stop and stare [ wouldnt that be nice?]

What do you think of your parents?
shut me up [ i think its me who's supposed to shut them up]

What do you think about very often?
the theft [of what?]

What is 2+2?
balcony scene [i was never good with math]

What do you think of your best friend?
this aint a scene its an arms race [hahahahahahahahaha]

What do you think of the person you like?
same direction [i wish we were in the same direction tbh]

What is your life story?
my sweet prince [that sounds promising]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
im not okay [yeah its gonna be a permanent feeling lol]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
what have you done [would you mind if i killed you? well it is kinda true]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
better than me [i predict a drama wedding]

What will they play at your funeral?
my sacrifice [awwwww]

What is your hobby?
in and out of love [damn! how did u know??]

What is your biggest fear?
hang 'em high [how can i fear tht???]

What is your biggest secret?
dear maria [xmmm.... never really thought of that]

What do you think of your friends?
nemo [oh pls can you be the cartoons?? xD]

What will you post this as?
zoe jane [damn i dont like the name]

Happy Halloween and Happy Birthday Frank..!!

mcrtilldeath — 2008-10-31T08:26:00Z

So I wanna say a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Mr. Frank Anthony Iero who is finally 27 today…!!! YAY..!!

May he have the best day ever…!!

He may be another year older bt still he is as awesome, and as DAMN fine as he always been!!! xD

Happy birthday Frankie…!!

Oh and one more thing….

HAPPY HALLOWEEN everyone..!! Hope everyone has fun tonight!! Eat some treats for me 2 pls!!! xD

To my "best friend"

mcrtilldeath — 2008-10-07T12:56:00Z

I was such a fool to believe

That she was ever a true friend to me.

She stood by me I’ll admit that

But now I’m wondering what happened each time I turned my back.

This is the person I called my Best Friend,

The one I would follow to the very end.

Now she’s writing that she loves everyone but me.

You stupid bitch how selfish can u be?

She was always here when I wanted her,

And there were times I thought I wouldn’t make it through without her,

But now she’s showing me her true self

And now I’m sitting her thinking what the hell?

Go on judge me, say I’m dramatic again

It’s not like you did anything else “best friend”

I trusted her with everything feelings, hopes, tears and dreams

But she always laughed at me for all of those things.

I must say I do feel lonely now that she’s gone

But it wasn’t just me that was wrong.

I’m not the one who is gonna apologize this time

It’s going to take some time but I’m gonna be fine.

No more will I take the blame,

No more will I smile when I say her name.

I’ll just try to rip her out like a page in a book

Here’s a picture of us look how happy we look.

So come on best friend stand up

Get away from me I am fed up!

I’m not the easiest person to handle I’ll admit

But that’s the part of me you could never change and couldn’t face it

Tell me best friend which of your words were true?

That you will always have my back as I did for you?

Or was it that time when you called my ex

And then told me you were sorry for telling him I was “kissing” someone else?

I’m done with crying

I’m sick of your lying!

Thanks best friend for the pain you caused,

I’m done here now get lost!!

By Sami Robb 7-10-08

another poem.....

mcrtilldeath — 2008-09-27T02:56:00Z

Diary, diary…

Diary, diary it’s been so long,

Everything I do seems so wrong.

A guy broke my heart,

And my best friend ripped me apart.

Diary, diary there’s no one left to talk to,

The only one I can turn to is you.

I feel empty and numb all the time,

I’m losing everything I once thought was mine.

Diary, diary I can’t stop crying,

I don’t even remember the last time I was smiling.

Why do things have to change? Why can’t they stay the same?

I’m tired of this so called game.

Diary, diary please give me some strength,

It’s hard for me to catch my breath.

The memories keep haunting me every single day,

Someone please come and take them away.

Diary, diary I’m trying to make you understand,

Stranger please let me hold your hand.

Make the pain I’m feeling go away,

Show me that I can run towards another way.

Diary, diary please don’t tell,

This isn’t the first time I fell.

I prefer if they didn’t know about the way I feel,

Inside me I’m still hoping that none of this is real.

Diary, diary I have to get out of here,

I’m going to hurt myself in a worse way I fear.

I don’t want to listen to what they have to say again,

You are probably my only true friend.

Diary, diary I don’t know what I’ve done,

I’m lying here waiting for a new day to come.

Watching the beautiful stars and the Moon,

There’s nothing but silence, night don’t end soon.

Diary, diary I’m all out of words,

All I can say is that it really hurts.

Diary, diary keep me strong,

Help me so I can finally move on.

Do you remember now?

mcrtilldeath — 2008-09-17T12:10:00Z

Let me remind you of the things you used to say,

Let me remind you of the things you used to do.

Do you think I’ve forgotten all about them?

It’s impossible when all I think about is you!

Do you remember how you fought to make me yours?

The miles you would drive just to see me?

The sweet things you used to say?

The pet names you used to call me?

I know you remember those things to,

You haven’t forgotten about me, I’m still a part of you.

There might be another girl by your side,

She will never be like me that’s the truth.

Hand in mine, lips on mine, body on mine,

Those memories keep me lost for sometime.

I never told you how cute you are when you sleep.

And how soothing it was to hear you speak.

Tell me you still feel something; tell me it’s not true!

Tell me you still want me. Oh please do.

I won’t deny the fact that we used to fight all day long.

But between you and me there was nothing wrong.

Let me remind you of the smiles, the tears, the laughs, the fights,

And all those nights without any sleep.

The risks I took so I can be with you,

The sacrifices I made to try and keep you.

Make me believe that those weren’t lies.

Look at me again the same way you once did.

Take back the hurtful things you said,

Come back to me and make me whole again.

Close the light….

mcrtilldeath — 2008-09-08T00:55:00Z